a story of sadness and sorrow.

this girl is siti wafa bt awal amir hamzah.
she was my first true love.
but shes happy now..
with a new life,
a new love,
a new start,
a past wich i used to be in..


It all started when i was fifteen.
i found her name on my cousin's fon..
and suddenly im all inlove with the name..
so interested in getting to know her..
and when i do get to know her..
she was already inlove with someone else..
but i never gave up yet..
i waited for almost three months..
and that guy left her..
so i caught the chance to comfort her..
i tried my best to keep her warm..
healed her heart..
stop the bleeding..
remove the scar's..
and both of us fell inlove..
and one day i asked her to be mine.
and she said"IF YOU WANT ME,SHOW ME WHY SHOULD I  ACCEPT YOU?,ASK ME TO BE YOURS FACE TO FACE."
So that night..
i sneaked out of my house..
get my bike to subang jaya.
i went to her house..
usj3/4v house NO.1
and i called and said..
"open your window i got a suprise"
and she opened the window..
and see me standing there..
and i said..
"now will you be mine miss wafa?"
and with so much love...
she said..
"yes!"
i jumped and jumped all around her house..
and i went straight back home,with happiness all over my heart..


after a month of loving..
hugging,
kissing,
dreaming,
and many more..
i was sure we were deeply inlove..
we danced together in the rain..
we kissed in the middle of the crowd..
we never cared about anything else..
we just loved each other so much..
we never fought thoe..
every two weeks we would see each other...
because of our distance..
and everytime i send her home..
i would cry to show her that everytime i see her is a special day of my life..
no matter what people said i never cared..
because i know she wont leave me no matter what..


there was this one night..
i brought her to a concert in bukit jalil..
and we went home late..
so when we arrived at the bus station./.
there weren't any buses left..
so we had to walk home..
she was damn tired..
so asked her to climb over my back..
and i walked all the way to her house..
we sit at the park for a while..
we looked at the stars together..
we picked stars..
and she said..
"your so nice to me b,iloveyousomuch"
and i said
"of course laa im your bf,ofcourse im going to be nice to you stupid!"
and she kissed my lips..
adn she cried..
it was strange that night..
so strange..

and then after a couple of months later..
i went to penang..
for just a week..
and i left my fon at home..
and when i got back..
she was different..
her voice was never the same..
and i asked..
"is there something you want to tell me baby?"
and she said..
"actually,there is.."
and she said..
"my love for you is starting to fade,its not the same."
i asked her why..
she said with full of sorrow..
"im inlove with another guy sam.."
i just shut the fuck up...
and said..
"ill see you tommorow and we'll have a long talk ok."
and she said..
"ok."

so i met her the next day..
and she told me everything about the guy she was inlove with..
the guy sounds ten times more better than me..
but i loved her so much..
all i did that day..
was..
cry..
and cry..
i fall down to my knees..
i beged her to not leave me..
i put my head down on the grass..
it was embarrasing..
but i didnt give a damn anymore..
i was so inlove..
but she just said..
"im sorry sam,i dont love you,not anymore..go home..pls go.."
i get up on my feet..
and she fell down on her knees and cried..
when she went home..
i followed..
and i watched her at her window..
until night falls..
and when she noticed i was there..
it rains..
and i just when straight home..
that day was the last day i ever saw her face..
and from that day on..
my heart is broken..
i cried straight for three days..
non-stop..
my eye sight went wrong...
and lastly..
she called..
and asked me to move on..
and my decision was..
to move on..
and be friends with her..
the end..